Birthdays, Numbers and Signs

Its February 2016. This month I celebrate my ^%$#-th birthday… For some reason I am experiencing anxiety over this birth year number. Ok, Ok. I’m going to be 44. It’s an eight, which is good number ‘though I don’t know much about it—I do know that! Perhaps, if I am honest, I can admit I thought I would be in a very different place in my life by now. Hugely different. Enormously different. So what now? Do life’s experiences really add to our growth—did I really sign up for it all?
My observation is this: When life throws a curve, or deals a dud hand, how come we look skywards and ask the unanswerable “WHY?” And when we ask WHY, why is the reply a bumper sticker, or feel good poster? How come we do not ask the proverbial “WHY” when life is good, generous, abundant? Is it just human nature?

I really did have so many things I wanted to have done before this age—but circumstance dictated otherwise, and I made different choices to the ones I thought I would. Or maybe I’m being a typical Piscean and having a pity party, where I am the V.I.P(iscean.)

So, my goal this new Birth Year is to really, truly, honestly, let go of the things I cannot change, situations I cannot mend, and breathe more.
I always see February as a hidden gem of a month. It’s that in-between time when you are still sleeping, but starting to wake from the yummiest sleep you’ve ever had… As you stretch you smile, for no reason other than you can. It’s the possibilities of that moment in the second in the minute in the hour of the day that can transcend every desire and every dream into a startling reality.
The 2016 Chinese Horoscope is The Red Fire Monkey, and it brings with it many exciting things too, so from 8th February, hang on to your besoms, or broomsticks, it’s going to be quite a ride!
With blessings, always.
Samantha